Nights like this i just wanna rant somewhere and I suppose this is where i can really do it. I am just days away from heading for overseas internship, Mauritius, Club Med to be specific and it all seems that a part of me couldn't help thinking about the things that I am still worried about over here. Dad's still in the hospital due to some old injuries that came back ever since it heals about 3 years ago and it seems that mum is carrying the burden of the family expenses and fighting against all odds to support the family from falling apart. And here I am a day away from the expo sales of BHG trying my best to work out the expenses I will be facing overseas as well as to lighten the load by not asking a lot for overseas internship, but other than that i felt cant help feeling really helpless. Perhaps that's the reason to why I am always drowning myself with temporary/ part time jobs or should I say to seek a new experience if that's to allow myself to live in denial. A part of me felt that overseas intern wasn't a good choice, whereas another thinks otherwise.

Eventually "I just want to learn to be like water, to go through the rocks perfectly without much fight with the obstacles that lies ahead". Forgive me, just like how the water did to the rocks, although they kept resisting against the flow.

Nights like this i just wanna rant somewhere and I suppose this is where i can really do it. I am just days away from heading for overseas internship, Mauritius, Club Med to be specific and it all seems that a part of me couldn't help thinking about the things that I am still worried about over here. Dad's still in the hospital due to some old injuries that came back ever since it heals about 3 years ago and it seems that mum is carrying the burden of the family expenses and fighting against all odds to support the family from falling apart. And here I am a day away from the expo sales of BHG trying my best to work out the expenses I will be facing overseas as well as to lighten the load by not asking a lot for overseas internship, but other than that i felt cant help feeling really helpless. Perhaps that's the reason to why I am always drowning myself with temporary/ part time jobs or should I say to seek a new experience if that's to allow myself to live in denial. A part of me felt that overseas intern wasn't a good choice, whereas another thinks otherwise.

Eventually "I just want to learn to be like water, to go through the rocks perfectly without much fight with the obstacles that lies ahead". Forgive me, just like how the water did to the rocks, although they kept resisting against the flow.